C o n t e n t s Foreword 1 A Note From the Author 7 1 Introduction to Energy, How Abuse Harms 11 2 My Reaction to Trauma 19 3 The Rules of Energy Flow 45 4 Blockages Start Early On 57 5 My Mother's Death 83 6 Closing Her Estate 107 7 Restoring the Flow 131 8 The 60/40 Split 137 9 The Four Abuses Explained 149 10 The Unseen World 161 11 Relationships That Had to Change 173 12 The Process of Energetic Change 183 13 My View of All of "This" 193 14 Empowering Ways That End Reactions 199 Conclusion Peace Begins on the Inside and Nowhere Else 205 About the Author 211 S t o r i e s A number of pivotal stories in Abuse & Energy will become teaching references for building a new perspective. Look for these stories as you read: A Mother's Day Peacock Feather 7 Missing Energy Pieces 27 My Chocolate Allergy 34 My Chocolate Release 36 The Crystal Coffin 37 A Wall of Spices 41 The 9/11 Tragedy 46 USS Greeneville 49 The Iceberg 138 The Second Apartment 140 "What Is My Community?" 141 Two Picnic Table Conversations 143 Dad's Funeral in 1965 146 "Mariane, Give Johnny the Toy" 147 Emotional Numbness 150 Discovering WENID 151 A Niacin Release 155 Another Iceberg Rises 157 Suicide Thoughts at Age Fifteen 162 NSF Program Certificate on My Old Bedroom Wall 163 Legs of Cement 166 "Involuntary" Wandering Eyes in the Counselor's Office 169 An "Involuntary" Part Speaks Directly to John 170 The "Ow" Game 174 The Last Straw 175 My "Shoehorn" Relationship 178 Connecting With Me 179 The Pencil 205 Two Places at Once 207 Golden Globe Vision 208